The world of me... sunshine!
Hope you like the new colors of my blog... i am thinking that I do. I don't have much to say but that I'm tired and off to bed! Everything is gonna be nice and dandy and i'm excited to sleep!!!! =) =) Elbow is leaving me tomorrow, that is sad. ya better call me! but good night!!
Kahhhtrinakatieeee
Yes, I have a simple case of it! Doublethink, in case you are wondering, is believing two contradictory ideas at the same time... and i'm very good at doing that! I have been "biting my tongue" so to say, and trying to leave out all my frusterations. Its the issue with Greg... and my other friend who is a girl! Yes, they are just being too stupid people, but I think to myself whenever I get angry "no hurt pie... he no good! haha" and then someone else in my head says "dang katie, you still wish!" How sad. But yes, ALWAYS in the end... the no hurt pie wins out which is a very good thing. I love the way the good always wins out in this situation.
Heh, anyways, sorry to bore you on that... i've gone a darn long time without talking about him! It was going good too! Today however was a pretty good day. I failed my science quiz that my teacher made me take, that was kinda sucky. I only answered one question on the page... as for the others, i had no idea where to start or what to do. Everything else though was good about the day. School went good for the most part, track went good... i think i did pretty ok on my events. I just have a lot of studying to do for euro, but heck! that class is really dumb.
Some strange things have been happening lately. I have been observing how people act... yeah its very wierd to me. I was the kind of person who didn't really notice anything, but now for some reason my eyes have been peeled like an orange. who knows kates.
I need to get off this thing, i'm starting to fall asleep... track and school really can poop a person out... plus I think i'm writing non-sense.
Woooshhh,
Katieee
Well hello again. Let me just say, it's DARN good to be back.
I have a large load of homework to do, and I have to make up a bunch of stuff. Yeesh! Not too much happened today. I keep on thinking about last night at cession, and how that night meant a whole lot to me. It was hard and sad to hear problems that people have kept inside them, and how much of a burden they are to them. I just want to say that last night was crazy, I was scared out of my pants, but afterwords.. I just feel a lot better and I know who to turn to when I get off of my train tracks. But dang... things are going to take a lot of time... and i'm taking all of the advice everyone gave me. thanks =)
But a funny story (to me)-- In Euro today, my teacher was discussing burdens somehow, and he asked me a question in front of the class. I was definitly daydreaming, and did not know the answer or really what the heck he was talking about! All I could think about was how brian said that he was a burden last night! I wanted to tell Douglas about what I was thinking about... but yeah... now this story makes no sense, but hey... it was kinda strange to me. ANYWAYS hahaha sorry bout that
School was kinda a disappointer today. People said that I was tan, and that was awesome... but elbow went home sick and I didn't get to see her! I was very sad... I didn't even know that you were feelin icky elbow! I hope you feel better!!!
Well I guess I am out... I have still stuff to do, and I'm exhausted!!
Katie Mae
Alrighty... it's time...
Florida was pretty darn great, very warm like I said before. However, I got kinda off track in my walk with God. I noticed it a lot, and I found myself thinking about many things. I really wasn't around religious people, and I know that I should of tried to step out in faith, but I just couldn't do it. Man I felt like a fricken loser! I just wanted to talk about it to someone but I had no one there! Arg, it made me quite frusterated. This should be a time where I am praying constantly, stepping out in faith since my family is experiencing some big times of trouble. Everything is building up, and I find myself losing hope when all I should have is hope. It just is poopy. But anyways, it was real nice to get back to church and see everyone there. I was really stunned because I didn't have a name tag on or anything, and people knew my name!!!! Joyus!!! I know I need to get back on my climb though... I seemed to have stubbed my toe on a rock or something?!
The only other thing that bothered me in florida was all the talk about drugs and stuff... not by the adults though! I HATE drugs, drinking, etc... I HATE THEM I HATE THEM. I just hate the fact that people even try that stuff. They talked about it a lot, and how they get high and drunk and stuff. That made me kind of angry. This kid that came down and stayed with us thought that he was cool because he did that kind of stuff. It's funny though! I lost a whole ton of respect I used to have for him, because I thought he would NEVER do that kind of stuff. It's all so over rated.
But dang, I'm glad to be back! Elbow I missed you SO much! I just wanted you to be down there with me so I could talk to you. Thanks for everything you do elbow... you mean SOOO MUCH!!! Much love
And for god-- Thank you for loving me even when I feel like I mess up. With you I can do anything, I just have to set my mind to it... and I will. You rock!
Katrina
I am sooo tired from traveling today! It really wears you out!!! My vacation in florida was very nice, it had its times where I got quite frusterated and stressed, but overall it is good. I enjoyed it, and I am very tan now! YAY! My aunt is a pretty silly character to be around for a week... she is a blast! I'll have to write more on this tomorrow or maybe just let you wonder what went on last week. I am real tired and I have some serious jet leg (i think that's what you call it) and i'm going to bed. Good night!!
Katrina
Hello everyone. Today was a very long day with all the stuff I had to accomplish! I'm not even done either, and I actually think that it is Saturday hahaha. I am doing my laundry right now and packing haha, I didn't have any time with catalina and all! By the way it went pretty darn good... except for the fact that Greg A was stalking me, and err it was annoying me. He asked me to hang out afterwords haha but I was like "I can't!!!!" good thing huH! Yeah, I told Greg L that I would miss him... but he didn't say he would miss me, I kinda yeah, brushed that one off! Since he will probably miss SOMEONE ELSE more haha. hmmm oh well.. but I must say... there was this one person there (no greg's) and he was rockin my world haha... wooooie!! I'll give you a hint, he has been talked about before. Anyways, I got a little off track there! Our catalina show went pretty good, my group got our dolphins PERFECTLY both times, way exciting!!!! Well I will miss you guys when I'm gone. Have a good week!!! Love you all! Miss you elbow!!! Call my cell ok dokie!!
Katie---SUNSHINE!
-- One more teenie thing, Beau told me that I was, In fact, a catalina cutie! hahaha awesome.
OHhhh you have NO idea how glad I am that it is Friday... finally! It has been one heck of a week, and I'm glad to be going to Florida tomorrow.... don't worry, my name is sunshine, I'll bring it back! Wooosh! Anyways, we have our catalina show tonight... its at the high school at 7 and 9! You should come!!! I'm going to school... and I have track after, and then I have to go right to catalina! I still don't have my dinner arranged =( but i'll figure something out. Well that's about all I have time to say for now. I shall be back later tonight to give you an update on everything. Hasta!
Sunshine
Happy St. Patrick's Day!
Yes, today was green day in fact, and I did have my green on. There's really not too much that went on today. I'm getting very excited for Florida... can't wait to get into the sunshine hehe but first there's all this work that I need to do! Its stressing me out quite a bunch! I have my Euro test tomorrow, and I literally know nothing, nothing at all. I guess you could say things are making me a little bit unedge... and its very frustrating! I find myself getting kinda angry at things people say, even if they are just dumb little things that shouldn't get to me. It's very strange!! Haha maybe it's the fact that some certain people keep flirting... HARMLESSLY... and yet I get a little on edge haha. Silly Katie!! But that's basically it for me at the moment, I'm headed to bed eventhough I hardly studied... i'm just still feeling a little under the weather! nighty night!
No more hurt pie!!! hahaha
~Katrina and the WAVES~
Hello everyone. The past few days have been quite hectic!! Track started yesterday and our new coach took us on a hard run for me! Wooie, it definitely killed me! I also haven't been feeling too good, I've had a headache and stuff.
Today was especially interesting. My favorite person in the world (E.L.) was talking bad about me in the locker room this morning and I caught her... so I went back in and gave her a look. Boy I was kinda angry at her, but hey, I sure caught her and made her feel stupid! hahaha. Yeah, I've basically felt like poop the whole day with a headache and stuff, so I slept in class the first 2 hours, but I didn't really care if I got yelled at... eventhough I didn't! =) It was strange how I would wake up and hear the teacher talking about monkeys and stuff? I didn't get that one. Lunch was pretty interesting huh elbow! I'll just leave it at that... don't want to embarrass myself! Then I went home like in 5th hour haha and my mommy took me to the doctor and I have a bladder infection... so now I shall start to feel better, I got some drugs!
Not too much else happened today though! I'm going to start studying for my Chemistry test tomorrow... whoppie... not! See you!
*John Mayer is awesome*
~Sunshine~
Arg. Right now I feel just very frusterated about something, but to tell you the truth, I have NO idea what it is. It's irritating me very much. I think it is another one of those days where I feel completely blanked out, and I just hate it when that happends! anyways...
Elbow, you are super cool and don't worry so much about things. I know that God has amazing things planned for you... after all he brought us closer to him... and you will definitly be able to handle it. I know how you feel though, everything is very confusing, so you are probably thinking right when you said not to think so hard! It always gets me in trouble at least. You should listen to the "stars" song by David Crowder Band... he says that "it'll be alright..." =) Love ya!! Oh yes, about our friends from Allendale! Me and Elbow have good times with you, and we like to hang out with you guys! good stuff, good stuff! =)
"I wanna shine, I wanna be the light. I wanna tell you it'll be alright. And I wanna shine, and I wanna fly. Just to tell you now it'll be alright." Dang that's an awesome song!!! Definitly how I feel.
Well I will leave you with this tonight. It is my essay about something, for a class! Haha, well just read it if you wish! Good night y'all.
“Eighty percent of life's satisfaction comes from meaningful relationships.” -- Brian Tracy
So far in my life, I have found out that relationships are the ones that can get me through everything.
The most important relationship I have right now in my life is my family. I have the usual so called “American” family… a dad, mom, sister and brother. They have taught me how to love unconditionally. It’s strange how I can make numerous mistakes and how they still love me no matter what. They each taught me a different thing about life. My dad and mom taught me how to always try my best at everything, and if I fail, it is ok because I had given it my all. My sister taught me that I can be myself and still be cool, and not to care what other people think. My brother taught me a very important thing that I will always carry with me. He showed me how to genuinely care about people and give them your utmost respect no matter how they treat you. My family is just great! They have taught me so much through our relationships and I always know that they will truly care about me.
Then there are the relationships that I have with my friends; ones filled with up’s and down’s, just like a rollercoaster. There are times where I can get upset with them, times when we disagree, but we always end up solving our differences… and believe me, it is definitely worth it. My friends can get me through anything. They are there to listen to my every word if I am upset about something, or even if you just need someone to sit around and be bored with. Friends are priceless!
In my opinion, one of the most healing kinds of relationships are the ones I have with my “man’s best friend.” Yes, I know, it may sound strange, but dogs can really teach a lot about life and relationships! My dog Ali teaches me again how to love no matter what. There are times where I come home from a bad day, and all I want to do is just lie down and sleep away the afternoon’s stress. Somehow, man’s best friend knows that something is wrong, and comes and licks my face, making everything seem much better.
Relationships are very important in everyone’s lives. They can teach you everything you need to know about life, and life’s lessons. If it weren’t for them, there would be no emotion in the world. Whether good or bad, they can affect your life forever, and they are truly meaningful.
Hello! Today was also a good day! I was a bit tired from the LMS sleepover with all of those crazy kids... so yes, that made me kinda crabby towards the middle of the day when I got my new running shoes! I just kinda sat around all day, relaxing, then I went and saw Jac at her aunts house. That was good stuff, nice to catch up with her again!
OHhh yeah hahaha... I told Greg A that I couldn't hang out tonight because I was having issues. It wasn't a big deal to me, and yeah, I just didn't think I wanted to anymore. Anyways, this part is kinda funny. I was in a mood to get a smoothie, and my old lover wanted to go too, so I picked him up and we went to Hoppin Coffee and got one. Turns out that we saw no one other than..... Greg A!! That was kinda a sticky situation, but he never came up to talk to us since there were a lot of people there, he just knew that I was there with my old lover. Not a big deal to me, since my old lover is not as sketchy as him! haha... it might not make any sense, but its kinda interesting I thought. Me and my old lover had a good thing going on tonight, good talking, and we were just good friends... which was well... good! but that's all that happened =) and all that will!
Tomorrow my Dad and Mom are going to church with me! First time for them! I am excited about it, and i hope they will like it. BUt that's pretty much it for me! See you tomorrow Ellen and Nate!
~Kates~
WOooooie! Yesterday was a day FILLED with those crazy things. A lot has been going on where I feel like i've made all the wrong decisions and it makes me feel like crap. I realized that it isn't a good thing at all to go Saturday night and hang out with Greg A becuase he is acting really strange and its really freaking me out. I just don't want to handle it... so i'm avoiding the fact! I'm going to tell him today that I can't because I have too many friend issues at the moment, which is a true fact. My Greg got really upset that I was going because of SO many reasons and its very complicated... but only a side dish of why I am not going to go. You might be very confused, but i'm not going to go at all because it is the right decision this time!
It is also a true fact that Ham-bone also wanted to hang out, but friday night. Since me and Elbow are going to that thingie, I told him I couldn't... and then I accepted an offer with Greg A, Saturday night. I was told that it wasn't right what I did, becuase Ham-bone is very nice and would treat a girl perfectly... and where as Greg A, well who knows what he would do. YEESH. So that wasn't a smart decision what I did to Ham-bone... and I apologized.
PROM. YES. That is one of my other big decisions where I am completely lost. I don't even want to say much on the fact becuase it is already getting my undies in a bunch, and I am contemplating many things about it. We will just leave it at that.
I just find myself saying sorry a whole lot, and it is sincere, but for some reason it doesn't seem to be cutting it. dang.
Anyways! Elbow, your blog is gonna be awesome! I'm very sorry about your retainer... but think about this! I kinda stopped wearing my retainer becuase i hated it... and my teeth didn't turn out sooo bad did they!? haha... your teeth are very lovely, and you are lovely!
Well I got to head to school. My head is aching, my stomach is a-turning... and i'm a-going to school. Tonight will be craziness with all those little kiddo's elbow! Lets bring a whip and make sure they listen to US! hahaha just kiddin.
Have a great day to you 2 people who read this!
~Kates
Well I didn't know that there was going to be a move made here! Um so yes, I am a little sketched out because Greg Antioho asked me to watch a movie saturday night with him... and i said yes. He's a cool guy, but its really scary becuase he's very clingy and I don't like him!!! AHHH! Then I was thinking that it was a date and all, which is sucky becuase I don't like him like that... so I asked Eric if he and Leah would go with me haha. Eric is going to ask Leah tomorrow, so hopefully they can come! Otherwise i'd a be screwed!!! Hmm. Greg A said I was VERY COOL... and frankly I want to run away!!! haha whooo knows... I guess I'll figure somethin out. But for now, i'm exhausted... and this is another blog about a boy. I need to get a freakin life! hahaha You're awesome Ellen!!! =) =) And Nate, you're awesome too, always keepin my head on the right track!!! =)
I guess I wasn't the one who made the move.... YIKES
KATERS
So I have heard from someone or something that I might be helping myself to another helping of hurt pie... but that's just not gonna happen. It can't happen, nor do I want it to! So yes, I am still a little dogish, but this time I know what is best!! =) Later!
Hello my friends! I feel just like a confused little puppy! haha or maybe a large dog, not sure! Anywho, I thought today was going to STINK! I woke up at like 2 in the morning with a migrane, and yea that made me extremely dizzy... it was like a spinning washing machine hahaha. But by 10 ish, I felt better, so it was a good thing I went to school. Ellen said that I was crabby today =( jeesh, you silly girl... you aren't supposed to tell a person they are cranky, it makes them feel more crabby! haha just kiddin ellen, you know you're my elbow!!! So I went to the Y today with Greg, and I pumped some iron man! I'm pretty sore, and I even ran a really fast mile (10 mph for 2 min! haha). We had a good time, and it was fun to just do something together once again. I realized though that I really didn't have any feelings for him! Cool stuff huh!
Neckers needed help with her math again, so she came over and we worked it out! Good times! Then we talked to Greg about the prom, and he said that he doesn't want to go with me becuase people told him not to ask me. They also said not to, because they don't want another chance between us, and I was upset at first, but now I realize that they are all right! Smart people they are!!! I'm thinking that's basically it for today! Tomorrow is the day I need to make my move.... but I still haven't figured it out yet!! Its driving me crazy too, because what if that thing was true! haha Things are just way too funny to me... anyways!
Night!
Kates
OK I just thought I needed to write this down (or type) before I forget or change my mind! I have decided that I really CAN'T go to prom with my ex! haha, ex just sounds so harsh.... maybe he'll be called something like greg how about. Anyways! I was discussing it with Eric, and he said that it might not be a good idea becuase people might get the wrong idea and stuff... and I was thinking that I might start to like him again, and that would be poopy! BUt if he asks me... ohhh jeesh.... I would probably say yes. AHhhh.... who knows! Me and Greg are going to the Y tomorrow to pump some iron hahaha. This is funny stuff man. Well i think I just confused myself! Oh well, I gotta go help Anneke with her math! Later!
I forgot something... I drank a Jones Soda today and my little reading in the cap said "Wednesday is the day to make your move." I don't know what kind of move I need to make, but hey! I thought it was cool. I laughed... hahahaha
Good night this time!
~Kates~
Today, I just don't have much to say. I just feel kinda emotionally pooped out! Church was good, I enjoyed it... another good Sunday. My parents came home, that was nice! I missed them a lot!!! Then we went to see Passions again, and that was tough. I just feel like a bunch of thoughts, I don't even know what they are, but just thoughts that can't come out... becuase I have no idea what to say. I just don't know!! There's nothing coming out for once... shocker!!! I guess tonight there is a huge wall inside of me. Sorry to disappoint you! But yes, i'm out for the night.
There's this song called Pictures of you, by the Cure... and my ex told me to download it. It reminds us of us haha. Things are the way they are meant to be, I know it. =) just friends y'all.
Good night,
~Kates~
Actually, my Saturday was pretty normal. I was really happy because I got to sleep in, and it just makes a whole world of difference. I kinda just sat around for most of the day, then Kaylie called me and we hung out with Paul. We got some pizza, and Paul had some NASTY farts!!! That's pretty much it though. They came over, watched some tv, and then left. I talked to my "old" lover, now named as "the ex." He's a very crabby kid... never happy anymore. He just is like a big pot of poop, at least he sure is starting to act like one because of all of his dilemmas. I feel bad for him though really. It's a good thing that he's being like that to me though, because then I wouldn't want to start liking him again! That would be real bad haha, eventhough there are still feelings there... just not as strong! OH... one note I left out from a few days ago... according to my ex, I learned that the All American Rejects' lead singer sang about his ex, and I guess the reason why he made the cd was because they weren't friends. Sounds very familiar huh!!! It's not like i'm not trying here!!!! silly kid.
Anyways! My parents are coming home tomorrow, and i'm very excited. I really need to have a little chat with my mother about things... more like someone. That will be good because maybe she will take me shopping or something to make me feel better hahah (yeahh right! we have no money supposidively). The only minus of them coming home is the fact that I won't get the cool car anymore. BUMMER!!! Well tomorrow is Sunday... and that means Church! Yahoo! I'm happy about that, because I get to see a lot of really cool people there, maybe i'll do some flirting with big D? Who knows... depends on how i'm feeling. HAHAHA!
...Who's not crying a river or drowning the whole world!
~Kates~
OH MAN! There was a streaker at the pep assembly today, and dang.... it was pretty nasty!!! It was probably the most interesting thing though, because those dumb pep things are really boring. Jeesh! Turns out that it was probably J.S. *abbreviated for his protection*. Another weird thing... I went to this punk thing with Kaylie. It was actually pretty interesting, and Paul's band was really good! People were all excited about it, so they were dancing around like mad men and they looked pretty hilarious!!!!! AHAHAHAHAHA!!! I realized that half of my little cross buddies are little punkers! There were like 5 or 6 girls there, haha silly kids. Oh yeh! We saw this one guy there who plays guitar for my church, and he had a GIRLFRIEND, and I laughed...
Yeah, I'm thinking that today was a good day. I got an 80% on my Euro test, big surprise=)!! I also talked to my old lover (which should probably be more properly named as.... something i'll come up with later).... and that went really good!! I just still like him... understandable... but that will hopefully go away soon. He's just a cool guy =) and my friend again. He is a little strange though, because today he was like playing with his pants in a weird way... but that's just him! Not too many more things happened today, just pretty much the norm!
"Then I realize how bitter I had become,
how pained I had been by all I had seen.
I was so foolish and Ignorant-
I must have seemed like a senseless animal to you.
Yet I still belong to you;
you are holding my right hand.
You will keep on guiding me with your counsel,
leading me to a glorious destiny." Psalm 73:21-24
Jesus music rocks!
~Kates~
Ha! So today was an interesting day! I had to get up early for catalina, got called "erin l (whatever her stinkin last name is)" and that wasn't good! But other than that, things were pretty good! I had band festival today and we got all 1's... which is a good thing, but it means we will have to go to state... and that's just ok with me. Who knows! I had a fun time though at band, talkin with my friends and my crazy neighbor... HMMM, wierd kid.
I do have an update between me and my "old" lover! We didn't talk at all during school again, still upsetting. It was just kinda a hard day, i'm feelin still hurt and all. We ended up talking online when I got home, and I realized a lot of things.
1. He is upset that I implied that we weren't going to be friends anymore
2. He really wanted to talk things over with me before deciding what to do (suprising)
3. He wants me to be happy, so if breaking up made me happy, then he would do it... or agree with it
4. He knows that he was being a jerk!
5. When you care about someone, you would do whatever it takes to make them happy
6. Coming straight from him... "well when breaking up.... you always want to make sure that you remember and emphasize being freinds, that is the difference between a good break up and a bad one"
7. Make sure you check out #6 again
8. I still need to be friends with him...
9. AND THE BEST OF ALL~~We made a cute couple... but we will make even cuter friends!!!
... and that's basically it. I feel like I learned a lot tonight. Sorry about these blogs, they are all about my "old" lover basically haha. I feel a lot better though, and I know things will work out becuase I have God on my side along with all of my friends. One last thought for the day... "If I traded it all.. if I gave it all away for one thing, wouldn't that be something?" (Finger Eleven- One thing). Good night ya'all! Tomorrow's friday!!!!! WOOO HOOOO!!!!
~Katie Mae!!!
Ok, just for the record... God is GREAT! Definitly not the first time I said that, and it sure won't be the last. It is amazing how great, how awesome is He! I've realized the past month, that His followers are so much more loving and understanding than the non-believers. I'm not trying to put anyone down either, it's just my thought. My so called "die hard" christian friends rock! They help me to understand that God can get me through anything at all. They just bring relief to my life, telling me that it will be ok and I will get through whatever is making me bum out. Also, I have had a lot of time to not pay attention in class, and think about my teachers and what ones have impacted me the most. Most commonly the ones that I feel like they understand me are the ones that go to church and that are a christian.
It's something about a christian that makes a person way attractive!!! I was talking to Elbow today on the ride home, and we decided that the guys at the Chicago conference were WAY attractive! You can see the passion that they have in their eyes, and its just really great, and I know that I will someday need a guy who does that! Also we thought up that I can't date a person who isn't involved in some way to God. My old lover wasn't really involved at all... but still, he is a great person, no joke... just not as understanding as I wanted him to be. Now see, I have friends that are boys who avidly go to church, and they always make me feel better about what is bothering me... AWESOME!!!
Another thing... shout out to Nate! He's my hero... and always makes me figure things out and realize what is best for me. He has influenced me to open up my eyes and take a look around... and see that God is there! Love ya!!!
Hittin the sack eventually,
Katrina aka Sunshine!
Hey, its me. Things are kind of stressful, but I think they will get better, at least i'm hoping so! I'm kinda having a tough time becuase I just cut the chains with my lover last night. Today he didn't even talk to me at school, there was no word spoke... and its hard! All my friends were really proud of me, waiting for me to finally do it... but it doesn't feel so good. I'm still upset, after I found out from many people that he talked on the phone to this girl I don't like at all. Oh well... he deserved it. Other than my "old" lover, I have a TON of homework to do. It's really adding to the stress haha! I have to go to catalina tomorrow morning, band festival after school, not to mention homework when I get home. AHHHH Well I must go do that stuff now. Hasta~
